Feeling Ill Instead of Relieved...

So layoffs began yet again at work.  This one was a stunner with many creative, hardworking, amenable people getting the axe.  I don't yet feel relieved for being one of those to remain employed; I should as I am but I don't. I feel sickened by this apparently random act of violence.  No explanation, no justification, no information on who met this fate or why.  And none of us can figure out how we'll continue to get the job done.